AidanDaray

Sitting by the phone I've been waiting for it to ring To pick up the receiver To hear your voice on the other side I just want you to understand Why I am not around And for not being in your life Maybe some day We will see the err in our ways And you'll forgive me For the mistakes I made As I tripped upon my own feet Trying to walk in shoes bigger Than those of your feet You find the steps you take Larger than you are prepared I hope you find it in your heart To forgive me for not being Prepared for the challenges I pray I get the chance To make up for what I was To show you what I have become So you can see the changes

The beam shines through the covered window As day rears it's ugly head A dreary figure in the life of the nocturnal However this day seems to be worse As these beams keep me awake in the Hours of the norm When I wish to be asleep Forgetting my tribulations with the world Instead I sit before you Filtering my brain in such a way That is seems to flow out in Rivers of thought My mind drifts to you I curse my heart for holding Onto these memories that once brought A smile, but now only pain I lay here, a woman on my arm She has drifted to sleep However it feels wrong, dirty almost I cannot seem to replace that feel The one of

So here we are.  A month has gone bye You don't even have the will To do me some justice At least look me in the eye You changed, lost touch I became empowered  It saddens me it's true That I don't see you as much Before you left, there was no Me without you, for we were one Not two. Then it happened you are No longer you, I just want to show That I am just as happy now as then Before we dropped what we had Becoming again two, me without you So I hope you don't suffer again I don't want to hear your sob story I don't care about Dreams Just promise me you'll be alright Just read the words, not mandatory.  I

Impregnable. Indestructible. Fortified. A heart of stone I will build. A defense against intruders The only one to enter is me I will stand stoic to the pain Become a model of success Not in your eyes But in my own For too long this heart beat for Others, and too often it lead To my defeat and downfall This time is different. No longer will it hinder me No longer will I be weighed down By a grotesque ideal One construed by my need A need to feel happiness through The happiness of you Eyes are the gateway to the soul I just want you to look into my eyes See the wall barring the way. For when I look into your's All I see

You spread your wings With the grace of an angel Beauty that could not be compared To that of anything on earth Spread wide and flew away Away from everything we wanted Here I remain in my cocoon.  Unable to spread my wings Searching for a way out of the The darkness that is consuming me I feel my being shrinking Instead of the growth I need To escape this dark I always hoped I would find someone Someone like you The grace, brilliance, and beauty.  I had everything, but when it comes To the end here I am with nothing I thought I knew what love was However it's meaning was change Right before my eyes.  As yo

I see myself, as your arms reach Around my body, as we lie together A smile across your lips As you then nestle yourself Under my chin and I kiss you softly upon the head It's here that I can only think Of how fortunate I am to have you Two months have gone by There is but one complaint I have It is simply that It was both too fast and too slow Too fast for the reason That I feel I want to spend Every moment, awake or otherwise Knowing you are in arms reach Be those arms of my mind My Body My Soul Two I have, always as you have mine The third will come in time When I will go to sleep and always Always awake to see your s

So nice to see your face again, To bad with the sight brings Back, everything you once meant I have been saving some Choice words, for this One moment, I have been Waiting, to let you know Exactly, what you did and How, how I felt through, This ordeal, the pain, loss and Deceit, then I remember that You lied, therefore why waste My words, on your useless Self, self being a single Being, one not two, me without You, who gave up everything We, thought we would be in one Kiss, the devils poison forever Upon you, as I watch you suffer Eternally Now, time has cured your very Essence, from me as you can See, my hatred has been